Now What?

So the surgery was performed, but the only thing that it really helped was it stopped the pain that was shooting down his leg from his siatic nerve.
If you recall, I wrote once before, than even though our lives at this point seemed happy. We loved one another and adored our son, we didn't have financial problems like so many people, but we had Bob's monkey on his back to deal with.

This was the beginning of a series of Pain Management Specialists. Bob's surgeon couldn't help him any longer so he was referred to a Pain Management Specialists.

Well is anyone out there reading this has ever been in this situation, you know first hand that the Pain Management Doctors are in my opinion, just legal drug pushers. Bob was introduced to Oxcontin. Today we all know how addictive this drug is and addicts pay outrageous amounts of money to just get their hands on them. Who knows what the street value is, but it's a lot.

I should have known when a doctor tells you he has to write out a triple prescription for this medication because it's monitered by the government, this was no ordinary pain killer.
Bob was willing to do anything, he went into physical therepy as soon as possible, maybe even too soon, but he did it with his surgeons blessings. Living in Malibu we are limited to the small community resouces at our disposible.
He went to a local guy who by the way, was also an addict. He was way too aggressive in his approach because as a Black Belt, Bob was able to tolorate a lot of pain, what he didn't know was that he didn't need to get hurt to get better.
The therapist made his situation worse. Little did we know before he started that this guy had a serious problem with anger and hurting his patients and several of them were actually much worse after going to him, Bob was in the same boat.

So the doctor put him on Oxcontine and the real nightmare began. Oxcontine is a full blown narcotic. Well isn't that wonderful, an addict now on serious drugs.
At first there was not much difference in his moods, because he was in so much pain that he had been in a bad mood for so long, I almost started to think this was his normal personality.
What I know today, is that the cycle of needing more and more medication had already started. Bob knew it too.
He asked his doctor to take him off of it. It was too hard core a drug for him to justify being on it.
That's when he started his long cycle of Vicodine and Valium not to mention all the other medications that he took that I can't remember the names of.

The most important point of this is that, even Bob did not want to go back to being addicted to anything. He took himself off and the withdrawel wasn't that easy, but I was relieved that he noticed what was happening to him. I had no idea that the alternative pain medications were almost more incideous.

Talk to almost anyone who needs medical care for a surgery of whatever. They are given Vicodine. This one pain killer is more responsible for people going back out as they say in AA. Back to the bottle, which is exactly where Vicodine lead Bob. Back to the bottle.

One might ask how is that possible? Well, no matter if he took a drink or a pill, his mind was altered. End of subject. Dry Pill High vs a drink.